Today, if life always went my way, you would be reading my second post in a 31 days series about photography. After repeated prodding from a couple of friends, I decided to participate in said October madness and post 31 days in a row. Yes, it's craziness, but by the middle of August I had the month meticulously planned out. It was going to be awesome!
Well, "Going to be" is the operative phrase. Life happened and through it I know God was whispering "No" to my grand idea.
First of all, a few weeks ago at my daughter's 9 year old checkup, while telling the pediatrician about some strange symptoms she was having, he interrupted me and said, "She needs to see a neurologist or get an MRI in two weeks or less. I am really concerned about this." We just saw the neurologist, an MRI is scheduled, along with more visits to this specialist soon. Those things alone are going to make this month pretty crazy.
Then, last week as I was trying to upload pics to my blog, I kept getting an error message saying that my blog was full...as in I had zero memory left in the web album to host anymore pictures. I was seriously like "What?!?!" I didn't even know that was possible! So, right now I am trying to find the best solution to the problem...basically if I want to post any pics to the blog, I have to delete other pics. (I've learned there's a few ways to get around this and am trying to find the best option.)
I think it was on Thursday that I finally sent a text to my hubby and asked...
"Should I go ahead with the 31 day series, or not? Please tell me what to do!"
It was a few minutes later when I got his reply.
"Well, it's your plate...only you can decide how much to put on it."
I promptly wrote back, "What plate...I feel like I have a serving platter that's already full!"
To which he replied, "Then it's probably not wise to add a bucket of chicken to it."
I love that man. He has a way with words.=)
In one weeks time, not counting homeschooling, keeping our home running halfway smooth and wrangling four young children, these are other "major" events that occurred....
-we had a large group over for Sunday dinner (which obviously requires a bunch of extra cooking)
-taught a teen girls class
-taught children's church
-hosted a Sunday School class party (more cooking!)
-prepared for the monthly ladies' meeting (yep, you guessed it...cooked for that one too!)
This month is not slowing down, and things just keep being added to what feels like an already "full serving platter." There were a few days last week where I just felt like I was a toddler about to have a meltdown...how in the world can I possibly accomplish everything that I NEED to do?!
So the answer to the 31 days became quite simple.
It was "No."
I know I could have "made" time, but not without giving up something more important, like Bible reading, prayer and even sleep. My decision would really not have just affected me. Why? Well, that full serving platter that I felt was my life would have really "overflowed", but not in a good way. Like when you step away from the microwave for just a minute and the oatmeal overflows. (Don't you just hate that?) It's not pretty. It's messy. And it just makes you so aggravated you get mad.
When I feel that "overflowing" feeling, I just can't keep it to myself. My platter gets bumped and what sloshes out on my husband and children is impatience, unkindness, selfishness...it's not good. Would it really be best to have 31 days of that? Um...NO.
Right now we are in a season of extreme busyness. Most of it can't be helped and I can't say "no" to. A friend and I were talking the other day and while it wasn't about this, she reminded me of one of my favorite verses.
I'm so thankful that no matter what is happening, whether my life is crazy-busy or not, God is my refuge. ...my safe place...where I can run when I'm overwhelmed and need help. When I'm exhausted and don't know how in the world the things on my "full serving platter" (a.k.a. this thing called life) will ever get accomplished, He gives me strength to carry on. What a mighty God we serve!
How about you, friend? Do you feel like I do sometimes....just one more thing and your platter will overflow? Has God ever just impressed on you that you just have to say "no", even to good things? I'd love to hear about it!