P52: Mothers

I know Mother's Day was officially last week, but you know what's awesome?  Every day I get to be a mother.  It's such an honor and a privilege! Ever since I was a little girl I dreamed of being a mom.  And although I never dreamed my journey through motherhood would be so difficult, I feel SO incredibly blessed. 

 As most of you know, our first child was born with complex heart defects and lives with basically half of a heart. Just 20 months later our second child was born premature at 28 weeks, weighing only 1lb. 15oz.  Mothering is always a big task, but when your kids have special needs it is even more challenging!  

{Levi, Lydia and Caleb}

Then four years later, after being told by many doctors that I should never ever have more children, along came baby #3!  At five weeks I started bleeding and I was told I was having a miscarriage.  We asked the doctor to wait a few days before doing a D&C and when they rechecked there was a tiny, healthy baby with a heartbeat on the screen!  Wow! 

 This past November little Lucy-Loo joined our family. (I'm so glad that doctors don't know everything!)  I shudder to think what life would be like if we had listened to those doctors instead of trusting that God may have different plans for our family.  I don't even want to imagine life without Levi and Lucy!

This Mothering thing is a big job, is it not?  It humbles me every. single. day.  Little people watching and learning from my every move.  Some days I wish I could just wave a magic wand and erase their memory of when I lost my temper or reacted unkindly.  And can I just pass out blind folds so they don't see my every facial expression?  

Lately I've been a little overwhelmed by the thought of, "Wow, these little girlies may be mommies one day!"  What's even more sobering is when I think, "Would I want them to mother their children just like I mother them?" {gulp} 

My kids need me to trust God every day.  These little people are depending on me to draw my strength from the Lord so I'm the right kind of mommy. Without Him I can't be loving, joyful, longsuffering, gentle, kind....basically anything I need to be!  

Isn't it amazing how God uses our children to teach us so much?

I'm so thankful that God, even though He knows all my failures and inadequacies, has allowed me to mother these precious little people!  Being a mommy is truly the best job EVER. =)


Linking up to Project 52.  Last week's project : Still Life on a Road Trip


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